Leanne/huiying

2011-08-13T00:30:00.002+08:00

can't forget.

Miracles?

2010-09-11T01:13:00.000+08:00

had a talk with my mum on the way back from yishun..

we took a bus so u can see how long can the journey be?

And i actually telling my mum how much i changed.

from last time, almost everything also go according to wad my friends wans and needs..

Now? i see situation that somehow benefit me.

I can now reject friends offers.

and had my own mindset.

I was wondering is it because i had a goal a target the leading to these changes.

In secondary sch, i dun really had a goal, but just a target''to pass my O lvl''

without setting a goal wad are the benchmark for each subject..

ended up?

I did badly for my exams.

that was really causing a great impact in my life.

The only way is going to ITE and not straight away to poly.

really bad..

And now.

I studying in MDIS,

I set a target as well as a goal.

I promise myself to pass my diploma.

Not only pass, but passing it with flying colours!

but maybe of this,

i started despise ppl who dun really working hard for their studies...

and i'm like hating them.

I know i shouldn't be doing that..

i start hating those who obstruct my way of learning...

I really changed, do i?

From a easy-going person to a person whereby everything should be correct.

anything also can go and complain...

I starting to hate myself..

all these changes.

Is it right or wrong direction?

2010-08-22T01:07:00.000+08:00

i'm extremely bored..

after my exams..

totally, my mind are all in blank..

'what am i suppose to do next?'

my friend suggest to learn another language..

hmm.. maybe i shall take up malay?

shall try my language strength of my brain..

gonna learn my own..

i trying my best to keep my brain occupied with things..

so that i can dun remember.

and eventually forget.

i wan to go and play..

play until i go crazy...

i wan to learn..

learn until i'm tired..

so in order not to remember..

i chose this path on my own.

so i need to bear the consequences of it.

that the best solution.

a clear cut line.

wish u happiness always...

2010-07-29T00:07:00.001+08:00

Came across this song.
From Full house the korean drama

Back to the Beginning (Chum Eun Geuh Jari Eh)

You’ve entered my heart and what you’re telling me is love
I pray this isn’t all a dream
My heart keeps telling me not to let you go
It keeps telling me to act greedy, what a stupid thing to think
Fate brought your love to me, it seems so familiar
It was meant to be, but I didn’t know it’d turn to love
Soon it’ll be time to let you go, but I don’t know if I can
All I have to do is return to where I once stood
It’s how it’s supposed to be, but why does my heart ache so?
You’re finally going back to your true love
I should send you off with a smile
You look into my eyes and profess your love, though it’s a passing love
I’ve never felt happier, as if I’m in a dream
I’ve finally realized it now, that we’ve been in love since the start
All I have to do is return to where I once stood
It’s how it’s supposed to be, but why does my heart ache so?
You’re finally going back to your true love
I should send you off with a smile
Can’t you give me your love, is it really impossible?
I love you with all my heart…

ya.. and i just realised..
i no longer the one u love anymore...
or maybe u never love me before...
tears just keeping falling when listening to this song...

2010-07-26T00:58:00.000+08:00

明知我爱你
[新加坡电视剧《红白喜事》片尾曲]龚芝怡
--------------------------------------------------
告诉你 瞒着你 只不过是个决定
放弃你 忘记你 只怕我无法前进
不知道为什么会如此莫名紧张你
我越了解你 越靠近你 越犹豫

明知道我爱你 却不敢告诉你
我害怕失去你 宁愿沉默不语
该如何整理 幸福在手里
我恨自己 无能为力

明知道我爱你 却不敢靠近你
我假装不在意 反而痛了自己
多痛都可以 不能没有你
只想永远永远爱你
你知不知道我也没关系

告诉你 瞒着你 只不过是个决定
但为何 到如今 我依然无法前进
不知道为什么会如此莫名紧张你
我越了解你 越靠近你 越犹豫

明知道我爱你 却不敢告诉你
我害怕失去你 宁愿沉默不语
该如何整理 幸福在手里
我恨自己 无能为力

明知道我爱你 却不敢靠近你
我假装不在意 反而痛了自己
多痛都可以 不能没有你
只想永远永远爱你
你知不知道我也没关系

明知道我爱你 假装不在意
多痛都可以 不能没有你

只想永远永远爱你

你知不知道真的没关系

mixed feeling...

if i say, will i get hurt again?

2010-07-25T00:57:00.000+08:00

yes. i fail my AFA..
Lols..
these few days, i realized something...
My passion in wanting to learn nursing is not dying..
it getting stronger these few days..
but i dun think i'm fated yet...
I still not mature enough yet..
if possible, i might wan to owe a cert for nursing..
but i dun wan to go ITE to learn.
kinda waste.
if possible, money allow me to do so, i might consider taking nursing oversea.
But is there such courses outside..
My english must be damn good sia!

2010-07-17T00:59:00.000+08:00

I'm a failure..

It gonna due, and wad the hell am i doing right now?

Not even a single things i so called COMPLETE!

HUI YING,

U better wake up yr own ideas..

u SIMPLY had no time to think ANYONE apart from yr assignment!

Remember YOUR OWN GOALS!

STRIVE FOR IT!

2010-07-05T15:48:00.002+08:00

Here i am!

In school having lesson while blogging..

shit..

i getting so naughty!

HeeHee..

2010-06-28T19:41:00.000+08:00

Halo!

I think i'm going to fall sick sooner or later..

Been coughing at night since last week.

Voice change in the morning. but was eventually came back.

a slight flu sensation...

And my stupid migrain is back!

this time it getting worse as the day passes by.

and btw, it only 2 days and i cant stand it anymore!

the pain extend its own way to my jaw, near my throat area..

and feeling warm through out my whole body.

and feeling extremely cold when the wind blow.

hahas...

hope it just go away if i sleep more..

Okay, i was on fb now and one of my junior actually post this in her wall.

If you were going to die soon and had only one phone call you could make, who would you call and what would you say? And why are you waiting?

Hmm..

My answer?

If i had his number, i will straight away called him.

and asked.

Who am i to you?

waiting?

i'm waiting for an answer..

:)

2010-06-25T01:20:00.000+08:00

I know it BeEn a VerY LoNg time since i BlOg..

Hahas..

I dun know wad to say either.

My school was fine.

I get to know friends!

And I love them!

They are awesome..

BUT

of cos, there also ppl that piss me off.

Really!

I know i shouldn't be like that but it just argh!

get that?

Sometime, even though it my blog..

There still things that i still cant say it out..

2010-05-25T21:58:00.001+08:00

终於可以在今天划上句点
一整夜翻阅过去画面
快想不起我们为何会诀别
只看到那双你送的鞋
走一步又一步我才发现绕了个圈

走了好几年又回到原点
你送的礼物会不会太特别
毫不避讳那不安的传言
但渐行渐远习惯到没感觉
难道你早想要我走远

你送的礼物在此刻好体贴
陪我回忆把过往走一遍
穿了这些年难免会有污点
就像每段爱总会有终点

世上最残酷的恐怕是时间
困住人一切却还向前
乾涸的眼再挤不出一点咸
爱到如此可悲的境界
走一步又一步却跟不上你的脚步
你满意了为什麼我却只想要哭

你送的礼物在此刻好体贴
陪我回忆把过往走一遍
穿了这些年难免会有污点
就像每段爱总会有终点

你说做自己吧我们都做回自己哦~
不要再为爱受委屈

你送的礼物原来是一场劫

终於分别夙命一样准确

可笑到想要你赔给我时间

爱情有时廉价得可怜

光著脚我一路奔跑鲜血泪水一路狂飙
收起我的骄傲承认曾经备受煎熬
鞋上那记号只有你能明了
过了这一夜我就全忘掉

礼物 - ;刘力扬

超喜欢这首歌。。

唱出我的心身。

昨晚不知道，
泪水不知不觉又留下来。

2010-05-20T12:30:00.000+08:00

I dream of a good dreams that

i wan to fall back... back asleep..

For 3 hours!

2010-05-10T23:11:00.000+08:00

Friday

watched back up plan..

Nice i can say..

hahas.. and also have a nice long chat with kar!

Meet up soon wei and char!

miss u so much!

Saturday.

hectic day.

went evening to yishun for mother day.

Then rush to east coast for barbra 21st birthday.

didn't expect to stay over.

but i did stay over.

only regret.. never bring lappy there..

argh..

sunday.. mother day should let mummy happy..

ended up i made my lao bu so unhappy.

in fact angry..

wha..

i don even know where i do wrong?

haiz...

2010-05-06T21:59:00.000+08:00

hi guys..

after i leave my work...

Wad i did at home?

i woke up @ 9 everyday to have breakfast with my parents..

Then clear my house bit by bit.

Went to library to borrow some books.

read.day-dreaming will i have the chance to experience those kind of romance i found in the books.

Kinda impossible huh?

It just a book.

I wanna catch a movie..

Wan to have a more expensive lunch outside.

Do some shopping.

Go wherever i wan/like.

But i just cant.

Simply no money.

But nvm.

at least i saved a person from hunger right?

You are the only exception- the paramore

2010-05-03T23:03:00.000+08:00

该死的我。

2010-04-26T21:15:00.000+08:00

Lyrics | Mariah Carey lyrics - Angels Cry lyrics

the song is nice...

love it.

i have a why inside my brain.

wonder who can help me solve?

so confused.

If love is stupid, then i stupid you.

saw it on Fb.

2010-04-26T21:04:00.003+08:00

Lyrics | Mariah Carey lyrics - Angels Cry lyrics

2010-04-18T21:43:00.000+08:00

Family fight yesterday..

Small quarrel in the Fb with my brother.

...

Back into manga world.

In fact, I Spent most of the day today in a comics shop!

From morning 10.15 till 1pm

then head down to Jurong to see a doctor.

IMM for my lunch alone.

Visit my aunt over there.

back to comics shop for another 2 hours of comics!

Phew!

I get to watch a movie but ended up.

Didn't make it~

HAII..

2010-04-10T22:38:00.000+08:00

Target: to sleep at 1045 sharp!

Is alr 10.26 p.m.

Given myself half an hour to blog.

Finally finish 1 of my books that i borrow from the library.

the title: coffeehouse angel

Author: suzanne selfors.

I think u guys should somehow figured it out alr.

Romance.

It all started with a girl who actually given a stranger who laying in the alley a cup of coffee.

That guy who claim is a messenger.

Wanted to reward the girl with something she desires.

Which the girl actually refuses.

It turned out to be that guy is actually an angel from heaven!

And they both in love with each other.

But the guy need to go back.

And they had the 1st and only date.

And the girl wished for her desires.

That is to let the guy gt his promotion.

Ending that guy actually gt his promotion.

As a human being!

And they are together!

sweet ending.

Do borrow it and read.

i only wrote the romance part.

ther still more to go~

To forgive is to set someone free

The quote i read from this book.

Is the same as forgive and forget

isn't it?

Currently listening to Two is better than one

by boys like girls feat taylor swift

keep repeating it from yesterday.

emotions aroused me whenever i heard.

Just like it.

2010-04-10T01:58:00.000+08:00

Wednesday went to library to borrow books.

believe it or not.

I'm back with the books!

Went to have a haircut on thursday,

I cut bangs~

hahas.

Still okay.

Won't feel uncomfortable or wad.

Friday was hectic.

I assisted a slow doc in the morning.

Afternoon a Super DUper fast doc in the afternoon.

Thought that i cant manage well.

but well, It turned out to be pretty good one.

I'm not auntie kay?

I'm JIEJIE!

Haha.

I forever will remember de.

U make me day, dr lam.

Thks!

But still i help them until 6.30,

Over shot.

Meeting kar and wei at iluma @ 7

Of cos,

Ended up late.

Met them at a japanese restaurant.

I'm on special diet currently.

there ALOT of foods i cant eat/drink!

I cant eat fried food.

I cant eat cucumber species

I cant eat carrot species

I cant eat eggs contain products

I cant drink soft drink

I cant drink TEA!!!

see?

just like my mum alr.

She a vegetarian.(somehow)
Nvm.
I'm getting fat recently.
I noticed my mum noticed too!
she say maybe i become more cheerful alr?
That lead to my sudden growing of size?
Do happy make ppl fat?
hmm...

Watch When In Rome.
Brought a large poporn,
I just ate half of it.
Wasted.
It's nice
Do you believe in love?
i'm gettting less and less- u know-
believing that love exist in my life.
Maybe i shall wait for the day.
The day whereby i actually can say it to a guy while crying.
thank you that i slowly believe in love in this world again.
Or maybe this day wont come at all?

Be cheerful!
main point for me now.
trying to lead my life as fully as possible!
at least i dun let myself down right?

Actually there a lot of things running through my mind during my way back home.
Simply forgotten le bah..
hack.

Cheers everyone!

2010-04-05T22:21:00.000+08:00

Suddenly i had nth to write?

Feeling unwell now..

back, neck ache like hell..

who can give me a full body massage??

2010-03-30T21:49:00.000+08:00

I finally recieved my Letter!

Pending for so long!

It's here!

WooHOo!

It 4 days work THIS WEEK!?

They say that the only motivation for this week?

LOLS!

2010-03-28T21:58:00.000+08:00

Having headache and neck strain again!

my left wrist is hurting again as well

Did i say that my left wrist had a water bubbles in between the joint?

That wad the doctor suspect lah.

currently watch xin guang da dao 6

and thinking the teo heng!

hahas!

That me posing with the 2 wireless mics.

That the touch screen.

Let me show the rooms as well..

I just go around taking pic without their Knowing!

The small room(ultra small) 2-3 pax

medium room.(mostly i will get this)(even though ther 2 of us!)

The Big room!

(8-10 pax)

Okay the pros and cons that wad i feel.

it comes with 2 wireless mics, if u wan extra, that will be wire one.

but at least u get to have extras.

it touch screen to order yr songs.

It cheap!

It no GST service charge

No KOD charges

Their drinks are $1 can

U can even bring outside food and drinks inside.

Dun mess the room then it's okay lah.

Cons,

It far away!

It located at katong shopping centre.

Marine parade there lah.

They end work at 1am.

So, u only can sing until that time.

some of u might think their service is not good at all.

Cause they tell u yr room no.

u need to find yr room yrself unless u 1st timer

Drinks is self service.

Should be that all~

Getting tired now!

That's all folks.

2010-03-28T00:13:00.001+08:00

I'm here again!

It not that i VERY free okay?

Having a notebook now is so easy for me to blog anywher anytime i like!

all right basically,

was working in the morning at surgery centre with dr yap te lu.

She a nice doctor~

Really!

had a nice time working with her.

Then head home and bath.

rest.

Then head to bugis meet pris joan and livia and joan 3 others friends

Expected, I'm late.

Went steamboat just outside top one ktv.

Good. gt free music to listen.

just that the fan is spoilt so it warm.

Then we fled off!

Cause we didn't manage to finish the food that we took,

And there is a charges that if u never finish, u got to pay a sum for wastage.

So we CHIONG ARH!

hahas..

then joan went home so early.

8.55p.m.?

Nvm..

Stroll around then also head home.

Since it going to be joan Birthday.

here goes:

that the sotong joan!

See me and my perm hair!

yes this is taken long ago!

that's all folks!

2010-03-26T23:54:00.000+08:00

Better blog before i head to bed~

Seriously need to sleep!

I working tml~!

all right..

My plan was changed last min

Was suppose to get present for Joan and Jovan birthdays

But ended didn't make it.

Instead, i went to SGH to visit my colleagues who was warded.

Poor her~

Come back soon rina!

Get well soon too.

i had no much time staying with u guys anymore,kays?

So, went to eat frog porridge at the chinatown.

With Ginny Mummy, Kelly, Cheng and her husband and matthew.

1st time eating out with them.

Cool!

I treasure every moments.

Ginny Mummy the best.

Just let me share a pic that i bought for her during her birthday

Then went to my granny hse second round.

Gosh~

I gaining weight again!

That's all folks!

2010-03-25T21:55:00.000+08:00

All right people~

I just tender my resignation letter.

Felt a little sad though.

Imagine i gonna leave a place i'm familar for 1 yr.

真舍不得~

Nevertheless, I think i should think how to prepare the time after i leave my job

Cause i had exactly 1 month before i start my school

Wanna have time to do preparation and relax.

If possible, go for a trip!

Anywhere also can.

But before anything!

The MOST important thing.

My room is always in a MESS!

Clear my mind.

Maybe go to some cafe

Having a nice cup of mocha,

Maybe a slice of tiraumisu.

And do some reflections.

It gonna be a new start once again!

I ought to do it this time!

Success cant be true if u never act wad u say.

2010-03-24T23:39:00.000+08:00

all right.

i never felt so excited before!!!

My school!

this is the very first time i so excited about something that is normal?

maybe i really thinking of schooling so badly!

Letter!

pls come faster!

self-reflection~

is needed badly

2010-03-20T23:54:00.000+08:00

Believe it or not.

I gotta 5 days MC!

just because my wrist tendons is tired?

Okay, 3 days ago, i been feeling pain at my left wrist.

So, i started spraying salonpass and bandage when i sleep.

But still continue to go work lah.

But the pain did not go away but getting serious.

On friday, i intend to go to my staff clinic to see.

But ended up didn't.

For it not that serious,only cant bend well

and my clinic is busy with ppl.

Saturday

which is today.

I went back to KKH for eye talk.

After which, i plan to go to the women 24 to see doc.

Didn't expect they only see O&G

Nvm.

Bused to SGH.

Walk to blk3

A&E

Quite fast.

X-ray.

Nth wrong with my bone.

Is my tendons fault.

So the doc say i need to rest!

and thus given me 5 days MC!

WTH?

i wednesday need to go and check up.

TOO MUCH!

i regret posting on FB lah!

Stupid me.

one of my colleagues saw it alr.

Best thing, i went A&E alone today!

my mum dun wan to accompany me.

weird hor.

hahas~

my mum think that i independent enough.

But hello?

i just a 18+ girl?

wednesday check-up at clinic also gonna be alone..

Who wan accompany me?

2010-03-18T21:49:00.000+08:00

GOOD NEWS EVERYONE!!

I GOT ACCEPTED!!!

Start school will be in may most probably!

Need to confirm with my consultant again~

YES!

I M BACK AS A STUDENT!!!

dun wanna quit my job too~

wad to do?

2010-03-14T22:30:00.002+08:00

I need to do reflections.

Yes.

Seriously~

To be a better person!

A better LEADER!

A better girl.

2010-03-07T22:35:00.000+08:00

So long never blog~

Nearly forgotten how to blog alr~

Lols~

Thursday night went to Suntec convention centre with zane jie.

Went to the career and education fair.

Then head to Aston to eat.

Cheap~

Food is okay.

Then went to play archery.

Arms ache lor..

I so noob.

Shall go pratice again!

But no money~

Need to save..

Friday Went out with Zane jie again.

This time.

We Sing K!

Was thinking going teo heng

But the latest we can sing is until 1am.

AWW...

Went to check out k box @ kallang.

They let us sing from 9-4am!

Just 25 ++ or 28++?

Then we sing until 4~

Just nice sing until we are enough!

Then maybe never eat foods

Gastric is acting up again..

Gosh~

It coming back sia~

Didn't manage to eat breakfast but just warm water only

2 small cups of tea~

Was planning to board a bus.

But i too scared to fall asleep in the bus.

I took a cab instead.

Lols~

Went home and straight bed~

woke up around 2-3 if not wrong~

Wad a day~

Will be taking Diploma @ MDIS~

if all are successfully,

I will be starting in May!

2010-02-27T00:08:00.000+08:00

Mind in a blank~

I should be doing something.

But i'm not~

oh god..

Tml due date le leh~

2010-02-20T23:00:00.000+08:00

I'm prepare~

Fully Prepared~

Mentally fully prepared~

Can someone actually TELL me wad should i DO?

2010-02-14T11:12:00.000+08:00

Happy Chinese New Year to all!

)>.<(

I hereby wishes all my family members and friends,

Be pretty/handsome!

Be rich!

good luck in their studies!

everything shun shun li li!

Gong xi Gong xi!

2010-02-07T00:34:00.000+08:00

I'm utterly disappointed by yr actions.

Dun think everything is possible.

We both are just not fated.

2010-02-05T12:21:00.000+08:00

1st day @ work without zane and meiling.

Feeling of cos weird.

Is not that.

Oh they are on leave today.

But

they wont come to work anymore.

trying my best to adapt to the fact.

Thus, making me wanna quit immediately.

I totally no mood to work.

Nor had the strength to put on a smile for 5 mins.

Now is my lunch time.

I'm alone in the room typing my blog out.

weird huh?

I planned to wrote a entry yesterday night

Where i had my''last outing'' with them.

I told myself not to cry.

nearly succeed.

but when i was on my way home.

Zane send me a msg.

And that it.

i cried in the bus.

cant u believe?

I cry in the bus.

as if i gt dump by my bf.

=.=

I Treasure the moments with them.

I swear it true.

I will not and never forget them.

they are my sisters.

:D(T.T)

2010-02-03T23:26:00.000+08:00

Seriously speaking.

Whoever give me a hug now,

I definately cry in front of u lor.

I really cant bear to see my sisters leaving.

And leaving me behind somemore.

But i'm strong today.

Never shed a tear.

I wonder wad will happen if zaneta and meiling hug me tml!

nevertheless,

Hope will spoilt our mood.

STRONG!

cant bear but also must let go.

they had their path to cre8.

I cant and i wont stop them.

They given me alot of advices these few months.

I hope it will still continue on.

Smile!

I dun regret failing my Os.

And ended in KKH for these few months.

I get to know them.

I felt very fortunate with them.

They do say bad things but this act as a reminder.

After they had gone,

i wonder will the rest tell me my mistakes?

2010-02-02T23:20:00.000+08:00

HA!

Guess wad?

I mc for 2 days!

Tml start working!

And i still not sleeping yet?

change of blogskin?

2010-01-30T23:49:00.001+08:00

Actually not really.

Just that there so many problems with the previous blogskin.

i just turn it into default skin..

To prevent troubles.

Or shall i ask me friend to help me set up?

Hahas!

Wonder who can do that for me..

If yes,I will be so grateful to u!

Today plus flu..and block nose.

Really weak...

Haiz.

But i manage to buy something i wan!

I bought the heels that i wan.

Working shoes as well..

That for morning.

Began feeling giddy alr.

But still,

I mop my floor then head out to have my hair done!

I rebonded my hair!!

cost me $90.

Woah!

That exp.

But nvm..

Once a year only.

Then head to tiong to meet my girls.

Sry i was late!

.>.<.

:: ::

Head to vivo city to had our dinner.

we went to eat at ramen ten?

The 1st halal ramen in singapore.

So-so.

Didn't manage to finish..

Hahas..

I'm wasting food =s

Then went jalan jalan.

Mini bits.

bought a necklace for myself.

Even though is for bf to give me la.

But i no bf ma..

So still bought it becus of it new year!

Gt a free cushion.

And a pair of ear rings as well!

Oh gosh!

I spent way too much!

nearly $200 for just one day?

Gotta stop man!

2010-01-29T23:02:00.000+08:00

I officially declared I M SICK!

down with sore throat, cough headache, giddy and aching all over my body!

Ended up i didn't went to the party!

Gosh man!

And i heard that actually i won something

But i wasn't there so, it was forfeited!

ARGH!

WHY?

Stupid me!

Cabbed home cause i really very unwell.

As if i had rich

I took a cab to work today as well!

WTH!

Blamed myself for being lazy to wake up..

Thursday, outing with my jies!

It so awesome.

Even though is tired for me lor..

I think it worth it.

They are leaving on wednesday!

T.T

Tml a rush day for me!

Morning i need to go somewhere.

Come home to mop floor.

Then steamboat feast with girlfriends!

Sunday

Meeting in the morning to afternoon.

(maybe i shall get a hair style done too?)

2010-01-28T00:26:00.000+08:00

The result is out..

It the same as last year.

I never felt sad for wad i gotten.

I really due to my fault that i get this results.

I dun blame on others but just myself.

Wad is different is that i dun intend to appeal for poly courses.

As like last year,

I think the result will come out the same.

So why bother to waste my time for interview.

There a saying that goes;

The more u dun wan, the more u will get it.

I think it true this time round.

I been strongly reactive to the sentence

''Why not going to ITE?"

To me:

ITE is the really last choice of going there.

I dun like ITE.

It not that i dun like the student there.

I do have alot of friends been in ITE

But i just dun like myself going in as a ITE student

To me:

It shameful, as all my cousins.(paternal)

None of them went into ITE.

They are either JC or poly.

Why am i going to mark the 1st person to go in?

Isn't it shameful?

I do care about my face over there.

So it really my last choice.

I check online on private schools.

They all needed 5 credit of O to get in a private diploma course.

Whereby i only gotten 4, and the fees cost a bomb.

I cant afford to go.

My mum told me to retake my O all over again.

But am i going to waste another 1 yr study same thing again?

Isn't it wasteful to do so?

I decided to take a part-time higher nitec course.

Biotechnology.

So, i will be working and studying at the same time.

As i have not really gt the full details yet,

I still pray i can get in.

At least, i dun wan to stay as a O lvl gradutes.

I know some of you, my friends will like starting to scold me alr.

But i do hope i get all your supports.

As wad my mum say,

''Maybe it yr fate, yr education life is a longer than others.

So, do wad u can for now.''

" your uncle only gt his degree at the age of 32, age isn't a problem''

I do have to agree wad she say.

Not all our education life is fixed.

Maybe is my mindset is wrong.

And thus, i need to choose between work, study, SJ commitments
I'm regret to say,
Even though i dun wish to give up one of them.
But i dun think i had time for each and everything.
Unless i'm trained to be a superwoman.
Then, there might be miracle happen

I sorry to say that i cant go for my officer training course for this year.
I dun know when my course will end.
So, OTC just keep in view bah..
But if i'm free,
I hope that i will be updated in every thing in Sj.
So i can give feedback or help out actually in events.
Btw, I still keep my uniform with me.
So as a SNCO,
Will be good for me for the time being..

Oh gosh.
What time is it now?
going to be 1am?!
And i'm still blogging.
And i assisting doctor tml!
after work,
Outing with my Jie-s
friday SAS party!
Events are making me blur..

Could someone just buy me a organizer book?
i need to organize my events!

2010-01-26T22:21:00.000+08:00

Been working 4 days @ counter

Tml is marking the 5th day.

The reason of why am i outside the counter so many days.

i'm fast?!

One of the staff nurse started calling me SL

means Section Leader.

Which is 2-3 ranks higher than me lah..

Lols!

and guess wad.

The day i'm gonna work in the room,

I gt to assist a consultant?

How am i gonna cope like this?

Nvm..

I keep asking why am i having this kind of mother currently..

She never called up to tell me where is she having the dinner.

when i nearly reach home,

thought that she will be having dinner just downstairs.

But NO!

She was at Red hill market enjoying her dinner over there!

And asking me to settle myself?!

Why dun u tell me earlier man?

i'm getting sick and tired of the food i ate for years.

And the part of me is wrong cause i'm lazy to go out anymore.

So, i haven had my dinner now...

Was surfing net.

And she back from her dinner.

guess wad?

She started her nagging and ordering me to do this and that

Instead of just asking a simple sentence.

Have u eaten?

WTF..

And another thing.

She thow my cup into the basin early in the morning.

supposedly should be for washing..

i saw it and just dun care.

for i'm not the one who throw the cup into the basin.

And when i came back from work,

I wan to have a drink..

My cup is still in the BASIN!

I'm feeling like i'm just a tetant in the house.

cause i give her allowances.

Is like am i giving u the money for washing my clothes and renting of the room?

And the damn brother of mine also another one.

if he was order to open all the room windows.

He will just open his and my parent room

But not mine.

weird right?

Feel so lonely now..

I'm getting tense-up

was thinking releasing of the result should be 25-27 jan

But it not, it should be 27 jan onwards.

Ain't i'm blur??

2010-01-23T15:43:00.000+08:00

I had alot of thoughts flying in my brain now.

Should i or should i not.

I getting very stress up..

But there no one to talk to

no one can keep secrets for me.

How i wish i can just bang my head to the wall.

Or cry out all i wan.

But i cant do it.

i cant,,,

2010-01-20T18:08:00.001+08:00

Half day work today..

haha

a sudden 1.

so at home sitting infront of the com watching my shows...

Also dun know wad to do.

wad a meaningless life i'm having...

I just remember!
I soon had a big scar on my knee!!1
Because i fell down..
T.T
pain pain...
wth.
I'm acting like a small kid liao..
but no one care..
I being disfigured!!!
NONONO!!

2010-01-09T19:54:00.000+08:00

Wad the definition of best Friends?

In fact, i dun know either..

Wad i know is, best friends is ppl that know u and share with u wad happen in his/her life.

Always.. no matter wad.

He/she dun keep thing from u.

That's my definition of best friends..

Wad about u?

I been feeling i alr drifting further and further away from u

I dun know why.

I hope u will come back..

The normal you.

2010-01-07T22:00:00.000+08:00

So many things to say..

But another min, i totally forget wad i wan to say alr..

Bad memory..

Hahas!

Dun know if this is a good or a bad thing to say..

Tend to forget wad i left behind..

And somehow gt scolded...

Wad i can do?

say sorry and keep quiet..

wad going on with me...

2010-01-05T22:00:00.000+08:00

I was looking for the song yesterday for so long..

Ended up my colleagues told me her album is actually just release.

And the song is included inside..

And my colleagues had all her songs alr?!

Sianz..

Wasted my time yesterday..

wth~

Nvm..

Still need to carry on with my life isn't it?

Recently, i found out there a problem with my blog..

for example, if u went to escape..

U are struck there..

I wonder u guys have this problem or not..

The thing is i dun even know wad going on with it as well..

Just press F5 everytime..

Hahas!

Date is getting so near...

I hardly breathe nor think about it..

Just cross my fingers and pray hard.

*panic*

2010-01-04T22:37:00.002+08:00

Just came across this song..
I dun think there any full version yet..
it came from the taiwan series
Named： hi! my sweetheart
AKA 海派甜心
If u come here often should know i'm watching this series as well..
This is a 插曲in it..
This is just the lyrics of it..

杨丞琳 - 不能握的手Aka匿名的朋友Aka执着

独送昏暗不离的风为何你被爱
那孤寂的天色好冷
温柔和梦在胸口浮现你的面容
也许我们当时年纪真的太小
总爱懵懵懂懂走进各自天空
该怎么说让彼此选择当思念还转动

不能握的手从此匿名的朋友
其实我的执着依然执着
与你无关泪自行吸收
不能握的手却比亲人更亲厚
当所有如果都没有如果
只有失去的温柔最温柔

当又一次美丽的风回忆了被爱
那孤寂的天色好冷
温柔好我在胸口浮现你的面容
也许我们当时年纪真的太小
总爱懵懵懂懂走进各自天空
那是什么让彼此选择
又不仅是尊重

不能握的手从此匿名的朋友
其实我的执着依然执着
与你无关泪自行吸收
不能握的手却比亲人更亲厚
当所有如果都没有如果
只有失去的温柔最温柔

不能握的手从此匿名的朋友
其实我的执着依然执着
却决心和你不再联络
不能握的手却比爱人更长久
当所有如果都没有如果
只有失去的拥有最永久

It a sad song..
But wad the lyrics say really reflecting my feelings now...
i'm really feeling sad now...
not only work but other thing as well..
FYI, 匿名 mean ''anonymous''
I finally found a song that reflect my feelings fully..
I'm glad.

shedding tears..
Both happy and sad

2010-01-04T21:55:00.002+08:00

Crazy about this guy call 萧弘仁
If i'm not wrong with the name..
his songs is nice..
hahas...
1st day of work,
Haiz...
Make sure a big damn mistake..
wondering wad going on with me...
maybe lack of water?
then no time to refresh my memories..
my 2 buddies are leaving me..
they pass their resignation letter alr..
But wad can i do?
they wan to leave,
Cant possible force them to stay right?
for my sake.
they both are going to further their studies...
Wonder wad should i buy for them?
pencil box?
Great idea man..

i think i will be back to my old self..
when i first step in to work..
woah..
scaring..
T.T
>.<

2010-01-01T23:00:00.002+08:00

Happy new year to all my beloved families and friends!
A brand new year,
A brand new start,
A brand new me again!

stay tuned for more!

recently get to know this song..
法克这个人 - 萧闳仁

电视没关就在睡觉
漫画店里又来催缴
你活像抓狂一族主角
整天看美国英雄电影
对着镜子试试超能力
我想你真的相信奇迹
你是不是
想像那蝙蝠侠他带着面具
打败小丑然後开着跑车
他赢了美女
还是想像魔兽世界里的HERO
打败兽人唱着 We are the world
但是你知不知道
你的生命不会像cs一样
怎样死了都还可以继续
你的青春也不会像世界帝国的城墙
盖了又倒倒了又盖别再臭盖醒醒吧!

法克 U 现在不要鬼叫
法克 U 你不要给我邋遢
法克 U ㄟ!你休想上吊
法克 U 有朋友在你免惊
法克 U ㄟ!你还在睡觉
法克 U 你不要给我邋遢
法克 U ㄟ!你休想上吊
法克 U 我知道
年轻就是要不顾一切去冒险
才不会到老了自己才在後悔
趁着地球暖化之前我能做些什麽
还有时间我自己许的预言

法克 U 现在不要鬼叫
法克 U 你不要给我邋遢
法克 U ㄟ!你休想上吊
法克 U 有朋友在你免惊
法克 U ㄟ!你还在睡觉
法克 U 你不要给我邋遢
法克 U ㄟ!你休想上吊
法克 U 你知道我知道
年轻就是要不顾一切去冒险
才不会到老了自己才在後悔
趁着地球暖化之前
我能做些什麽还有时间
我自己许的预言

喂~喂
我是法克ㄟ!法克
我知道你们都很关心我
也很担心我的事情
ㄟ!对
不是我不听你们的
我自己想做的事情
我会自己搞定
你们不用担心

我知道
年轻就是要不顾一切去冒险
才不会到老了自己才在後悔
趁着地球暖化之前
我能做些什麽还有时间
我自己许的预言

It quite nice~
sound like fuck you lah.. but
it's okay de..
Just think it a person name lor..
;P

2009-12-27T19:35:00.003+08:00

Phew~
Finally busy days are over!
Been searching for christmas presents.
Wrapping up presents.
Ended up tired the next day.
But it over now!
Had a fruitful christmas day ever had!
On 23, my clinic had a lunch gathering.
On 24, again! lunch gathering but with turkey and stuffs
Best of the best, Gift exchange!
Had 4 cups tgt.
as 24 is eve of PH,
I only need to work half day!
Yeah!
Went home and rest, take a nap.
Night went to bb hse for christmas..
And eat,drink, play.
Exchange of gifts again!
And this is wad i got.
Even though it not the most expensive
But it big!!!
See!
a big doggy!!!
Thank BB for yr present!
xie xie ni!

Then stay over there for a night.
play manjong as well.
Wake up play again..
So damn long since i touched manjong..
did i say i only sleep like 2-4 hrs only?
Then was chatting, solving problem...
Then head back to home to wash up and meet again..
And before i leave, I so damn pissed off with 1 person..
Wad u wan to speak, pls get through yr brain first!

then went cine to catch alvin and the chipmunks 2...
before that we went heeren to had our dinner first.
That idiotic guy once again.
fucker stupid..
u also fucking stupid big size lor..
wad u wan to say?

had a unpleasant dinner~
then went pooling,
Ah ha!
i so lousy still can beat u man!

waited for the movie to start..
So slack down there..
Watched...
Maybe is i too tired alr..
No mood to laugh at all..
Wanna laugh but too tired..
Maybe i shall watch it again?
Then cab home..
Finally get to sleep enough...

still gt 4 more days to the new world..
My new resolution~
A truly brand new me~
Just wait..
I will forget whoever i wan to forget...

My world, My new resolution~

2009-12-21T23:08:00.002+08:00

I dun know wad to say..
I dun wish to say..
I dun wan to ruin our relationship.
I choose not to say..
Wad others keep telling me
''She is just using you''
I choose to ignore.
But this incident,
Really pierce my heart so badly.
Wad i can do is just
Swallow it down.
But my mind is just so frustrated..
I dun wan to let it go so easily
But reality make me do so.
In the future,
we will be having many partnerships.
And i dun wish this fact is an obstruction to us.
Frankly speaking.
I am so scared and frustrated about you.

Wad i hope is u really please think about yr future.
Wad u currently is doing, is it good or is it bad?
Wad do u really wan to get in yr life?

2009-12-15T22:01:00.002+08:00

Here i am!
still alive!
Currently obsessed with
Hi!my sweetheart,
Wife's temptation.
Ko3san guo is getting boring..
But still catching it..
*brb*
wtf..
NO mood alr lah...
damn my mum..
i'm getting more and more frustrated with my family..

Friday went bowling.
Saturday went night swimming alone.
Sunday went sentosa for outing..
Ended up with all muscle pain and stuffs...
And got sunburn..
All pics are on fB!
I'm so damn man in all the pics..
hahas!

Wad i'm going to do this weekend?
Friday facial appt.
saturday searching for presents..
Sunday at home..
Hopefully my schedule will be like this..
or saturday night clubbing..
wanna night swimming again..
My swimming suck like hell..

2009-12-06T15:30:00.002+08:00

Came across this ''essay on facebook.

60 A GAL/LADY/WOMAN WANTS BUT WONT ASK FOR!!

1. Touch her waist.
2. Actually talk to her.
3. Share secrets with her.
4. Give her 1 of your sweatshirts
5. Kiss her slowly.

Are you remembering this?

6. Hug her.
7. Hold her.
8. Laugh with her.
9. Invite her everywhere.
10. Hangout with her and your friends together.

KEEP READING

11. Smile with her.
12. Take pictures with her.
13. Pull her onto your lap.
14. When she says she loves you more, deny it. Fight back.
15. When her friends say i love her more than you, deny it. fight back and hug her tight so she can't get to her friends. it makes her feel loved.

Are you thinking of someone?

16. Always hug her and say hi whenever you see her.
17. Kiss her unexpectedly.
18. Hug her from behind around the waist.
19. Tell her she's beautiful.
20. Tell her the way you feel about her.

One last thing you need to do to show her you actually do mean it.

21. Open doors for her, walk her to her car (if any)- it makes her feel protected, plus it never hurts to act like a gentleman.
22. Tell her she's your everything - ONLY if you mean it.
23. If it seems like there is something wrong, ask her- if she denies something being wrong, it means SHE DOESN'T WANT TO TALK ABOUT IT- so just hug her.
24. Make her feel loved.
25. Kiss her in front of OTHER girls you know

WE MIGHT DENY IT BUT WE ACTUALLY LIKE IT AND KINDA WANT YOU TO TICKLE US

26. DON'T lie to her
27. DON'T cheat on her!
28. Take her ANYWHERE she wants

29. Text messege or call her in the morning and tell her have a good day at work {or school}, and how much you MISS her.
30. Be there for her when ever she needs you, & even when she doesn't need you, just be there so she'll know that she can ALWAYS count on you.

ARE YOU STILL READING THIS? YOU BETTER BECAUSE, IT'S IMPORTANT

31. Hold her close when she's cold so she can hold YOU too.
32. When you are ALONE hold her close and kiss her.
33. Kiss her on the CHEEK: (it will give her the hint that you want to kiss her).
34. While in the movies, put your arm around her and then she will automatically put her head on your shoulder, then lean in and tilt her chin up and kiss her LIGHTLY.
35. Dont EVER tell her to leave even jokingly or act like you're mad. If shes upset, comfort her.

REMEMBER ALL THESE THINGS WHEN YOU ARE WITH HER NEXT

36. When people DISS her, stand up for her.
37. Look deep into her EYES and tell her you love her.
38. Lay down under the STARS and put her head on your chest so you can cuddle.
39. When walking next to each other grab her HAND.
40. When you hug her HOLD her in your arms as long as possible

MAKE SURE SHE KNOWS SHES LOVED

41. Call or text her EVERY night to wish her SWEET DREAMS
42. COMFORT her when she cries and wipe away her tears.
43. Take her for LONG walks at night.
44. ALWAYS remind her how much you love her.
45. Sit on top of her and tell her how much u love her and then bend down to her face and kiss her while sitting on her.
46. Rub her back--feels good
47. Give her your coat if she's cold--thats always cute
48. Write letters on her back with your finger--feels good ;D
49. Let her sit on your lap
50. DON'T poke her hard...but if you want to mess around just do it lightly.
51. HOLD her HAND in PUBLIC.
52. Even if she looks BAD one day tell her she's BEAUTIFUL
53. Keep conversations flowing...talk about anything usually they just go along with it.
54. If their hair is in their face move it out of her face and then kiss her passionatley and gently.
55. Surprisingly sneek up on her and hug her from behind--loves it.
56. Kiss her in the rain.
57. Pick her up like in The Notebook and kiss her.
58. Slow dance with no music
59. Don't ignore her or be nerveous around her--everything is going to be okay.
60. Love her, kiss her, hold her, and you'll be good to go. ;D

Kinda cute :D

i shall begin my post..
Yesterday went to ZPN @ SJHQ
only teng teng and me wore full-u
Kinda piss off..
should had wore formal wear..
-.-
Nvm..
Whole thing end around 9 plus to 10.
transport back to tiong.
Went back home to change.
cause the adult members want to go and drink..
So,went CQ.
Ended up in rebel..
Lols~
pris wan teng teng teng and me went first..
followed by arens and his friend..
We just drink then pris and me go dancing..
And teng teng was drunk.
go home slightly early..
I go home still can online watch drama..
Hi!my sweetheart.
海派甜心
The show is damn cute..
Love it.
ppl gt time do watch it..
I love how da lang so sincere to his gf..
romantic sia...
So slept at 4 plus...
woke up @ 1 plus..
Such a lazy girl..

Hahas!
okay shall stop here!

Ps-eileen- see? i got post wor...
Karyee- sry for yesterday :(

2009-12-02T12:50:00.002+08:00

Having my lunch break right now..

With rina, one of my colleagues eating beside me..:)

Nth better to do..

And since my friend say i never update my blog..

Decided to update lor..

Guess wad?

I so damn lonely lor..

I gonna complain to meiling jie Later.

HahA~

okay, break ending soon..

2009-11-28T12:46:00.002+08:00

Yesterday suddenly feel like having lunch with my pri sch friend.

So i just sms jasmine...

Ended up i didn't get to eat my lunch but

We went for a movie!

Just the 2 of us..

In the past, it will always be the 5 of us or maybe 6.

Now left us 2..

Pathetic..

So i must hurry gather us back!!

Yes!

I wan us to be back tgt again:D

P.S. I dun wish to say the truth mean i dun wish to say anything about it anymore

2009-11-18T20:42:00.002+08:00

How can i make such a big mistake??

It totally very big mistake...

It like...

What the hell is going on with me?!

I really wan to bang the wall..

wad going in with my brain...

I have been sick since last saturday,

And from monday onwards,

I was like in a blur state.

Whereby i dun really know wad am i doing.

And ended up i lost one of pt's MC in the room.

I had no idea where it gone too.

And today, i lost my movement list.

And i can tell my doctor there no more pt for him.

whereby he still had 1 more to go at other room

And wad?

The other doctor need to ask for opnions for him.

And he alr left the clinic.

So the doctor no choice but to ask other consultant for help.

And guess wad?

He refused to help.

I had no idea wad going with his mind or something.

He actually asked my nurse manager how come the doctor of mine left so early..

It totally my fault then i miss out that pt.

And his own assistant actually told him is the mine fault then he alr left.

His assistant repeated 3 times.

And wad?

He just simply never listened!!!

And he wanted my nurse manager to somehow scold him tml

My doctor is a consultant as well.

See how serious the problem is?

It all my fault that tml is going to be a hard day for me.

My doctor is sure gonna be so angry with me!

He asked to me check and re-check again.

And still, i told him there no more.

T.T

I need to explain to my nurse manager...

And say sry to my doctor...

Suddenly i felt meaningless to continue my job.

Is not the mistake that i have alr did.

But the doctor who refused to help.

He a senior consultant and the head of department as well..

And he refused to help.

I wonder...

Didn't he remember the 5cs?

Collaboration means teamwork.(one of them)

Since my doctor left, he should just see and go.

If he really wan to say something.

Pls get a clearer picture of the the situation is before taking action.

But not refused to help, and complain.

I dun know why?

Wad they wan us to remember, to learn, didn't they taught them as well?

He just simply wan to make thing big!

I'm so guilty right now..

I hate myself very much!

2009-11-08T00:26:00.003+08:00

I just feel sad now..

I'm sick too...

I'm damn ugly..

I'm damn fat..

I had all the negative points that girls hate..

All in me

I cant think of any postive points about me..

I'm just... a back-stage crew

2009-11-04T22:48:00.002+08:00

They took my blood again..

How many times i took blood alr?

March whereby before i go in need to do a body check up.(3)

Sept or Oct there a something body check up again.(3)

And i went for it..

Today they took my blood again?(1)

It's like huh?

How many tubes of blood did u wan to try from me to do.

Maybe the same tests?

Total of 7 tubes of blood...

Wow...

Any how many times they need to poke us?

inclusive of flu jabs and so on...

And they ask me if i had taken heb B.

If no, they gonna poke me three times!

And i had sign up to take the H1N1 vaccine.

let me count. how many jabs i need to take..

Northern flu jabs.

Heb B jabs.

another type of vaccine jabs.

H1N1 jabs..

They just simply like to poke me...

T.T

2009-11-03T22:27:00.002+08:00

I've survived..

With all those...

Leanne sexy sia...

and tons and tons of questions..

finally the day had come to the end..

Will be back to normal tml!!!

PHEW~

I can do my work more peacefully...

I think i really fat liao leh...

exercise...

Ukimono!!!

i gonna buy you!

Went bugis today..

Saw something..

NEW MOON IS COMING OUT!!

In dec!!

PPL!

who wan to watch with me?

Pls jio me k?

2009-11-01T12:49:00.002+08:00

GREAT DAY YESTERDAY AND TODAY MORNING!

It is just so WOW~

I cant say i'm addictated to clubbing..

But yesterday was really special i should say..

Hahas..

I know one Boy friend..

His name is secret..

Hahas..

Cant believe he same age as me!

Such a coincidence..

NOV 14?

Should i or should i not go?

2009-10-26T19:54:00.003+08:00

Today i realised one thing..

Do treasure those ppl who are always by yr side...

Be it family members, relatives and friends..

How come?

Maybe those who can go check it out at yahoo.sg or maybe the newspaper.

check out a article that say'doctor drown during diving @ malaysia'

Ya..

By the name of Dr marcus lim

That's right..

He one of the doctor in my clinic for attachment currently.

When i step into the clinic in the morning..

One of my colleagues just suddenly.

''Hey leanne, u know dr marcus lim?

He dead alr leh.''

My first reaction was..

''Huh?''

And start smiling.

I dun really talk to him at all.

And he dun come often too.

After much time when my other colleagues say

He everytime take helmet here..

Then i like..

OOH! that one ar?

Tall Tall ride motor bike to work..

quite handsome lah...

Wad i feel sad is..

Wad he left behind..

He left behind a 3 year-old son and a expected wife.

And wad.. he didn't have any chance to say his last words.

And he drown in the sea...

Isn't it sad...

So really i must learn how to treasure my family members, relatives and friends..

I scared

This minute u get to see them, talk to them, feel the warmth in them..

Maybe..

The next minute u still get to see them, but they cant talk back to you, wad u feel is the cold in them.

I really don't wan to see this happen neither to me nor all my friends, family members.

I cant bear that to happen.

I can just broke down...

RIP Dr Marcus Lim

Life is just so unpredictable.

Try to treasure whoever u can..

Will you?

2009-10-14T22:53:00.003+08:00

Will u marry your gf/bf if they suddenly fall into serious illness?
Watched april bride today despite lack of money.
It sad..
kinda like koizora..
but koizora more sadder..
Both also because of cancer.

suddenly gt the urge to watch koizora again..

2009-10-07T21:14:00.005+08:00

有口难言。。
有时候，我觉得老天爷对我很不公平。。。
我不知道该不该在这里说。
我很想对你说清楚
但我不是怕你会伤心还是生气，而是我会。
我很想对你说我所有的不满
但我没有。
因为我知道你一定装一副若无其事的样子。
当你质问我的时候，
我会犹豫，然后什么事都不说。
我说了，你会觉得我很小气。
我真不知该如何是好。

刚才你问我。。
什么不会开(bloom)？
我现在告诉你。
其实，我同事知道你的事。
她就告诉我。
（你还是放弃他吧，不会开花结果的啦）

坦白说，我真得很高兴能够认识你。
你在我的中学时候留下难忘的回忆。
我也不怕对你说我真的喜欢上你了。

我也知道我们不可能在一起。
有时候的你真让我很生气。
也因为你，我开始讨厌11 号。
就在我生日吧。
你知道我有多么期待吗？
我期待的不是什么贵的礼物，不是朋友或亲戚的祝福。
而是你的。
你真得让我失望。
你知道我等到12点吗？
而我就不断地哭，直到我睡着。
虽然，你后来又补上。
但，我到现在还忘不了。
真是一个难忘的18岁生日。。

当时的你，因为我的一句：
‘我不喜欢不会做菜的男生。’
你慢慢的学.
到现在我还记得。
可是你煮给第一个女生，
却不是我。
你可能觉得我小气。。
我自己也不知道我为什么会这么想。

你一直说将来的事。
可是，以现在的情形。
我们不会有所为的将来的。
你很害羞，不是你要的。
你到底是真害羞，还是假的？
我不想知道。。

真得很抱歉。
不是我不想说话。
而是我不知要说些什么才好。
我不知你的嗜好，
你喜欢什么，讨厌什么。
有时你说的，我不明白。

因为我生长在一个很土的家庭。。

2009-10-06T21:49:00.002+08:00

Just feel like blogging..
But no subject to talk about..
I think i been acting abnormal today..
I like acting ''high''all of the sudden..
Ya...
Maybe i shall just stare at my son(the pooh)
......
.....
....
...
..
.
Cannot lah..
I gt a feeling that i wan to cry.
Better dun look too much today..
Why is that so?
.
..
...
....
.....
......
my hair smell is just cant stand it~
flower smell?
it simply too strong..
.....
....
...
..
.
Wad am i suppose to do tml?
I claim for deepavali.
1 whole day..
Maybe i just stick at home first.
And see how..
**********************************
My ginny mummy, meiling and zaneta.
Keep telling me this will not bloom.
But why am i keep dun wan to let go?
...........
I dun know why..

2009-10-05T22:43:00.002+08:00

ok..
wad did i do today?
Ermm..
I went for a haircut plus treatment
And i went shopping..
All with karyee!

The haircut is seriously not nice lor..
I prefer kar de stylist~
He's good while mine is like..-.-
And kar rebonded her hair after so much consideration and comments.
Dun worry kar!
Yr hair is fine..
Just that u not used to it!!

And we went bugis and shop shop!
I got my shorts and skirt alr!
yea yea!
hope i can wear and it look nice on me!

Guess how much i spend today?
Roughly $140 in like how many hours only?
Gosh~
I really need to be on diet until my next pay comes!
20 more days!

Events coming right up:
Sunday outing with gfs~
30oct clubbing..
really need to save $$

2009-10-04T21:02:00.004+08:00

Happy birthday to sammi teo sim yu!

My cousin!
19 this year!
HAPPY BIRTHDAY
Happy birthday to Alton wong
My cousin!
12 this year!
HAPPY BIRTHDAY!
That was yesterday 3oct de greetings..

Happy 18th birthday to my beloved Sock Hwee!
4th oct!
Meet up soon ya?

Yesterday i just spent my whole afternoon online.
Browsing through webs and chat around evening..
Ended up, i turn up late for my reunion dinner..
Nvm..
Better than both my brothers who did not turn up.
:D
Then i use my uncle's com to online...
Then i help my aunt to use ipamper.
Went home @ around 1203.
Saw my brother on the way
We go home tgt lor..
Stare @ my pooh bear
Slept @ 130
*Whenever i feeling sad, i just stare @ my pooh bear*
Woke up @ 10.
Online @ 10plus..
Leave a offline msg.
Start clearing my room a bit..
Brought my mum's lappy to go out and online..
Using mobile broadband..
fetch my cousin..
And she today so draggy lah...
In the end, she was slightly late for tuition.
I was slightly late too.
Nvm too..
Waited for her to finish her tuition.
Then i bring her back to my granny hse
Back home..
I didn't mop floor today..
^^ lucky i escape..
but i did something else.
Clear my cupboard!
let u guys see how my cupboard looks like...
This is before clearing..
i must admit it really messy.
i open the door.
Clothes started to fall out.
And i just throw all my clothes on the floor...
See? that all my clothes currently...
All the handles i had..
And starting throwing all those tom boy clothes out!
And i iron my gess sch uniform as well..
Even though i will never wear it again..
tidy.. Love it!
My memories!
i didn't manage to keep my primary sch uniform!
damn!
This i really dun know how to dress lor.
With wad?
u guys wont believe it mine..
So auntie lor..
But better keep it...
My mum say it expensive bah..
And phew!
I'm finally done!
Much neater than before!
Let my calculate..
I had 2 SJAB full-u
whereby 1 set is really cannot be used anymore.
1 set gess uniform
8 jackets
6 dresses( 1 piece)
so on..
Wad i notice is..
I dun have shorts leh!
wha~
maybe just 2 for going out purpose
I shall buy some tml!

Now fasting..
Cause tml they wan my blood.
Health screening.
cannot eat..
Haiz..
Going for a haircut tml!
cant wait!

2009-10-02T22:04:00.002+08:00

Piss off by my mum...
Stupid!!!!
say my cupboard are like rubbish dump!
Wth!
cant stand!
She just a housewife..
With traditional mindset..
And stupid attitude.
That is..
We children is a MUST to help her in housework..
And i somehow influence by her..
Shit~

2009-09-30T21:19:00.001+08:00

Today mark the last day of sept!
Wha~
Time fly like rocket!
It going to be a year since i leave my sec sch~
Wooo...

Wad am i thinking about??
*shake head*

2009-09-28T21:20:00.002+08:00

Ah~
Working @ 8.15 tml!
Wonder can i wake up or not~
Can to a new song..
Do listen to it..
There a english version for this as well..
But chinese much longer~
Enjoy!
Wan the song?
Prone me in MSN and i send it~

2 more days for yr freedom..
2 more days before my loneliness is back~
er.. actually my loneliness is here always~
LOL!

2009-09-27T17:52:00.002+08:00

saturday~
I was pissed off in the morning..
I supposed to go out to meet my friends to go for a event
called' dining in the dark'
And i alr decided that i will do my housework on sunday
But!
My brother insisted that he will mop on saturday~
So i was kinda 'forced' to mop my floor in the morning!
And in the end, i was late~
So ps lor..
The seniors are like waiting for me~
Nvm...
Ended up i'm not the latest 1~
hahas~
Had our lunch in a dark room...
It a great experience u know?
If there a chance, i will like to introduce to all my friends!
Have a great fun in the room..
We just keep laughing laughing non stop~
While the other room,
with my nurse manager in it..
it very quiet~
~.~
Then went junction 8 shop shop awhile..
Ended up meiling did not get any clothes~
:(
rushed home to charg phone~
And meet with priscilla to go for clubbing!
Seriously lor..
Go clubbing cannot go without guys~
and dun wear heels when u wan to go clubbing~
it totally sucks..
feets so sore now.
;p
Really thank to those guys who shield us yesterday!
Thank you!
I shall not think of going clubbing now!!!
Exams are here!
Work are still going on!!!

And i got scolded for never informing my parent i'm staying out late!
:P

2009-09-24T22:06:00.002+08:00

Maybe a short post before i go for my beauty sleep~
haiz...
When my mum came back..
wad she do to me is just nagging nagging and more nagging..
Why?
I never do anything..
is like wtf?
U only scold me..
Wad about my brother?
Why not u scold him?
When i was around his age..
I still help u do some of the things..
But He?
Nothing!!!
just cant stand it...
I cant won her..
I dun know why...
ren ren ren~

2009-09-23T17:58:00.012+08:00

I'm back from kuching,malaysia.

Was there to attend some matters.
18 sep 2009
3pm filght.
Reached there about 5 plus..
Went to my aunt mum's place.
Put our luggage and have our dinner @ a restaurant.
Then moved our luggage to one of her brother house.
Stay there for 1 day before i moved to hotel!
That my granny, uncle and my cousin...
The bed is super big!
It's like so shiok ar!
The view from my room..
Then rest awhile before heading to a restaurant..
Just opposite the hotel for dinner..
Then sleep and get ready for tml big day..
My aunt brother wedding!!!

That my aunt brother and his brideAnd they have no tea ceremony but just bowing ceremony..
this just relatives. Didn't manage to get the pics of them bowing to parentsMy uncle and aunt
After which, went to his new house
The one i spend my 1st night in.
To have a buffet lunch..
And wad.
We singapore used disposable plates and utensils
In malaysia,
They used normal plates and utensils
Although is limited.
But it saving the world..
Then went for a massage near my hotel there
and do my hair as well.
back to hotel and changed to..
THIS!!!
Here are some dishes:
That my cousin.. She just wanna to be princess..
Then went back to new house.
watched my uncle lighted the firework..
It totally very shiok!!!
Then went back to hotel and rest...
The next day went to a place called qing shan..
Then dinner @ aunt mum's hse
She cook herself..
Delicious..
Then Was back in hotel quite early.
About 9 plus.
Then i just went to use the com for 1/2 hour.
And bought a tiramisu.
Couldn't finish it..
As it turning watery.
And sleep...
Last day
Woke up. Bath and pack bag.
Cause we need to check out by 10.
Have breakfast after going to lot of places.
My uncle lor.. last 1 to wake up..
Breakfast and went to get my hair done...
pretty nice...
Hahas..
Then have lunch @ my aunt mum's hse..
Head to the airport..
Gt 2 hong bao from my aunt mum and her sister-in law.
totally shocked...
nvm...
And i'm on my way home!
And that it!!!
I'm finally done!
Phew!

突然间，我好想抱着你。。
但，这是不可能的事情。

2009-09-18T00:16:00.001+08:00

I'm leaving sg around 15 hr later...
Dun know if can blog there or not..
Hope i can borrow a com lah..
I shall take lots of pics back!

Promise!

2009-09-15T21:52:00.002+08:00

There i am!
Reading manga again!!
I simply love manga ya know?
And wad?
I forget to do wad i suppose to do again...
crap..
And wad?
My billing sucks today!
I need to pay $4!
I had no idea where the $4 went to!
Wad am i thinking?
Craps... so craps!

不管我做什么，我还是回想起。
该用什么方法，才能让我忘记。
回到原点呢？

2009-09-14T19:02:00.002+08:00

wad going with me?
I totally had no idea...
Wad am i suppose to do?
Wad i need/must do?
i just totally dun care..
Just stick infront of my com
i neglecting all my things...
And that goes my leave for today!
I'm so gonna to be dead this time round!
Brain Brain, Mind mind..
Pls come back to me!
And WORK!!!

2009-09-13T00:38:00.002+08:00

yesterday..
Woke up @ 640.
Put on U-zap
And continue my short nap.
(>.<)
woke up.
Dig for my zone-tee.
Off i go!
a little bit late.
nvm..
someone later than me..
Have mac breakfast.
Head off to NHQ
Had my CPR+ AED course.
A 4 hour course
9-1p.m.
But since we all know CPR.
somehow benefit us.
We are passed!
*clap clap*

And today i really broke man!
i spend $15 for my dinner @ pizza hut..
It really nice the pasta.
turkey bacon carbonara
that wad i order.
And $11.05 for my cleansing foam.
Just used up in the morning.
$50 for a nails kit.
make yr nails SHINE!
At first i thought it was 49.90
Wad i know is 50.00
Cheap by 0.10
I just dun listen to wad the girl say.
Ended up the thing is 49.99
I was like -.-?
Is there such thing in Singapore with a 49.99?
The girl is a foreigner somemore..
Somehow cheated..
Better dun tell my mum anything...
There goes my Money for my Malaysia Trip..
It my own fault though..

等到要失去，你才会珍惜，了解吗？
会不会，太迟了？

2009-09-11T23:29:00.003+08:00

Something wrong with the blogskin lately.
Changed to another 1.
Will edit tagboard and links maybe tml.

I had so much to say..
But i just dun know and couldn't tell u all..
I hate the no. 11 now..
Since 11/08/2009
Just couldn't forgive and throw it away.
Having a sad day today.
Becus it 11~

你所谓的爱。。。
我一点也感觉不到。
你。。。
没给到我什么。
除了心痛以及伤心

2009-09-06T01:30:00.002+08:00

Feeling very full now~
eating too much pop corn..
and wad?
It going to be 2a.m. now!
wha~
I still need to get up early tml..
Pray that i can...
too full cannot sleep..
bullshit though haha..

Went to watch G force..
it funny.
Like that show..
It also a last min decision that i go..
If not, I dun know wher the hell my brother will go too.
Becus of me, hahas...
He now playing Psp on his mattress.
Just so useless.
Haiz..
No self-control..

I really wanna watch the proposal!!!
Argh!

2009-09-01T20:10:00.001+08:00

1 Sep!
A brand new day!
A brand new month!
:D

ermm..?
Wad am i happy about?
-.-

2009-08-29T16:10:00.002+08:00

i currently still in NHQ @ beach road...

Exams were finished..

but i still dun know why am i still here..

Pretty lame lah...

i know that..

been helping out since morning.

in seeing the practical test..

i prefer seeing theory test though..

nvm...

currently alone in a room..

using the electricity here..

nth.. so decided to blog lah...

so boring...

i nearly forgot how to spell this word alr..

LOL!!

2009-08-26T22:26:00.001+08:00

Today mark my last day of MC...
I cut my hair...
I changed my pouch..
Be prepared!!
To see a BRAND new ME!

2009-08-24T21:47:00.002+08:00

Ok..
I gt 3 days MC.
I did not have a fever..
Just block nose, flu sore throat and slight cough..
and lol.. gotta 3 days MC.
I should use these 2 days to do my things well..
Yes~
Block nose is so disturbing~

2009-08-21T22:01:00.002+08:00

Hello~
I'm back.
I pronounced i'm broke currently..
Dun even had money in my bank any longer..
Thx to my bro $120 cake.
Should be $90 bah.(i pay)
Not feeling well today.
So lazy to post any pics...

Today was like...
Stress...
ISO!
Audi coming..
So sister was like..
U MUST KNOW!!!
so had a stressful morning..
Follow by assisting Dr Lam.
Stupid.
He called me Auntie.
Wad the..
Shall ask me if he know my age or not next week.
Assisting him was fun bah..
At first, i was scared..
But slowly it getting fun...
When he get to know u abit better bah..
Assisting Dr benjamin next week as well.
He is very cute!
Aiya..
Too bad..
They both are married.
-.-
I like them Both!!!

Thank dr malar for tying my hair for me!
Love you!
Hahas~

Getting busier and busier..
Like a bee..
No time to rest..
ZZzzZZzz
^^

2009-08-17T20:42:00.002+08:00

Can u believe it?
I actually planned to watch the national day rally..
But, i cant skip here and there.
So i give up..

Headaches are coming back..
And each time it gradually increased its power~
I think i cant sit infront of the computer for too long..
Sitting in front make me do nth.
And it making me anyhow think...

And headaches do kills...
Ahhh~

2009-08-16T20:49:00.002+08:00

I practically think that
I not I
I dun know wad am i going to do.
I tend to forget things.
I tend to make mistakes here and there.

I like emo songs.
爱无力
祝我生日快乐
傻瓜

These few songs..
Perhaps i still cant forgive and forget.
My mind still have the "why" questions

Maybe like wad my colleagues say:
He just toying me.
He not worth for u to wait.
Shall i get u a bf instead?

ok.. last part very lols..

2009-08-15T23:40:00.003+08:00

Happy 21th Birthday to Poh Jia Jun
Happy 15th to Poh Xian Wen
Wish u both have a wonderful day!

Sort of ''busy'' today~
Need to wake up early later on.
ooo..
Is 2 a.m now..
Gonna get going!
Tml meeting~
Hope it will get the ball rolling.
ATC'09!

Happy 18th Birthday to Ng Su Hui
Happy Birthday to Michelle Neo!

2009-08-12T22:34:00.002+08:00

You're not sorry.

I feel that it really suitable right now..
Dun wan to explain..
Wad i feel is so unfair to me.

Pls kindly contact me so we can talk through...

JASMINE KAN
ILOVEYOU!
Aishiteru!
<3
* she wan to write de*

2009-08-11T21:44:00.002+08:00

Thank to those who wished me lah..
Really appreciated that..
But dun know why..
Compare to so many years of birthday celebrations,
This is the most unstable mood lah..
Sometime high sometime low..
Mostly low lah..
Emo birthday i'm having..
Thank pris for asking me out lah..
Even though i wish for something different this year.
Thank Josephine, zaneta, meiling,jasmine, junxian,tingxin, aisuan and priscilla
For the gifts.
Especially Jasmine and junxian for the cake!
Love that.

Wad i feel i had achieved:
i had more leadership
i more cheerful
i talk more
i thinking are little bit mature"sometimes"
i know how to communicate more.
i more recognize by others.

Wad i wan to achieved before my 19th birthday.
Be more independent( i'm starting to lack)
Learn how to really cook( eastern or western)
At least learn 1 instrument( i really wan)
At least really learn 1 sport( keep fit?)
Contribute more to Gess Sjab
Be more neat and tidy
Be more mature-thinking.
Be more pretty;)
More friends!
Know wad type guy i really wan.
Not too much..
Later cant complete!

A birthday where i first experience heart pain.
It really hurts.
Really....

2009-08-09T22:47:00.003+08:00

Happy 44th birthday SINGAPORE!!!

Great!
Little did i realize that the movie i plan to watch is not out yet!
20august
Wth..
Wad am i going to do on tuesday?
Suggestion anyone?

2009-08-08T23:05:00.002+08:00

o7o7o9
Went back GESS for national day as well as sport fiesta.
Reached there around 6.45...
Then watched the parade..
It like memories flooded my brain when i was reciting the pledge..
Then help out in sport fiesta.
Be right should be referee.
But by left, they actually gt their referee from badminton club.
At first, everything was like.
Blur.. Wad going on? etc..
Cause the day before some of them played alr.
So i just make things clear.
And i took over.
Both teachers over there was impressed by me.
Saying i'm a responsible, very good girl.
Asking for my name and class.
He planned to give me merit points..
LOL!
A DNT teacher
Both of them still think i'm in this sch.
Nvm..
Then had promotion parade and POP.
Turn out well..
We are the last UG group to leave, as usual..
Hahas..
Went home and took a nap on the floor.
Gain some energy and wake up for dinner with jas and jx.
Kinda trick by jasmine..
Thank to junxian.
They brought a cake for me.
Cause junxian won't be back for my birthday.
He bloody hell went Indonesia.
They celebrate for me advanced.
Better than nth..
I really thought they forgotten le.
A VERY BIG THANK YOU TO U GUYS!!!

o8o8o9
Saturday went back to work..
hahas...
Once again, I impressed someone
The nurse manager on duty.
For being alert.
Hahas..
She gonna report to my shifu!
Wonder wad my shifu will say?
Hmm...

I'm off until tuesday.
Maybe i shall catch my movie' the proposal' myself on that day?
ThinkingThinkingThinking

2009-08-05T21:49:00.004+08:00

I dun really like hearing nor saying vulgarities.
BUT!!!
What the Fuck going on with my mum??
I dun wan to heard wad:
yr brother is not in yr generation..
WAD CRAP?!?!
So he cant be doing wad we did when we are young.
FUCK?!
So wad?
HE cant go sch by himself.
HE need to use our brain to help him think.
HE had no common sense.
Guess wad?
She now talking to my big bro through the phone.
Informing him that my bro is bringing a friend here.
And that friend is helping him to do up his facebook and so on..
HELLO??
He cant do himself?
Wad the fuck need his friend?
Wad can the friend be fucking doing..
Play Play and PLAY!
Seriously speaking, I dun trust any of his friends...
Wad i see, wad i heard...
Bad influences...
Not even a good soul that could help him..
But making it go worse and worse...

Wad a fucking irritated night i had today!!!!
PISS OFF!
Sry about the bad words...
I need self-control..

2009-08-04T23:05:00.002+08:00

Just blog a short while.. since tx asked me to online..
Went back to GESS today.
Memories.
Best memories~
Hahas~
I step into the school...
Back to my old self..
Running here and there.
Mr Goh still remember me..
*touched*
Hahas..
Coming back tml once again..
Gonna meet Hakim sir!!!

2009-08-03T19:53:00.003+08:00

Need to keep working on my com.
If not it stops.
Kinda weird but it true.
It really just auto restart.
And Now, uploading pics to fb.
So, My dear COM!
Just dun restart k?
Later must faster go bath and dry my hairs.
Same time, i shall fix my printer if i able to fix.
And iron my clothes..
Going back GESS tml!
arh...
Missed my school days!

I think i dun wan to say that thing again..
related to school..
Close friends should know..
I keep saying but i never do de lor..
It coming near but it just...
Haiz..
Dun know how to say lah..

Dun wan to make empty promises anymore..
Mature-Thinking!!!
Be MORE mature!!!
Wake up yr idea!
POH HUI YING!

2009-08-02T21:38:00.003+08:00

Ever think about this...

Your parent get divorced one day.

Ever?

Ever think about this...

How u going to react?

I dun ever dare to think.

And dun wish it to happen

neither to me nor ppl around me.

But sometime rather it to happen then to suffer forever.

Right?

A lesson to remember today.

2009-08-01T00:34:00.002+08:00

Shall post before i really surrender to my bed.

HAPPY 18th Birthday, Kar Yee!
I'm so terribly sry that i'm late.
Need to go home and change.
Didn't really fulfill my promise.
A middle-sized Patrick.
But i gt u another piglet tgt with 18 roses!
Hope you like it!
Sweet 18 Always!
Love you!:D
You dun talk that much today.
Kinda worry.
Dun feel left out k?
I'm here for you!!!

Shall upload the pics real soon!

2009-07-30T22:02:00.002+08:00

Ohh..
I'm just simply lazy to upload Pics!
Cannot be lazy anymore..
Haiz...
I wanna sleep early but i cant!
I just wash my hair..
Need to charge my phone as well..
Need to think wad my plan for tml!
Wad to wear sia?
Think Think THINK!

2009-07-29T22:28:00.004+08:00

New BlogSkin!

Have lot to say but dun know how to write...
Tuesday after work.
Meet pris for dinner.
Saw a woman suddenly vommited!
Stunned~
Then ended up ate dinner with aiden ai suan and ting xin
@ chinatown.
Joke Chat Eat dim sum~
Was all right but the cafe was special.
IT called Breakthrough cafe.
Should be operated by ex-convicts de lah..
It a christian cafe lah.
U can see gods here and there..
So do support.
Yeah?

Today.
Was out with colleagues.
Went to hard rock cafe for dinner.
Seriously, I planning to get a debit card lah..
But dun know which bank is better.
hmm...
Was taking photos, ate.
Food was quite good.
Kinda exp though.
If u dun not have any promotion lah.
But we did!
So it pretty normal.
I just need to pay $13 back tml.
Just the main course only btw..
Pics hopefully will be up in facebook.
I will miss u mei ping!

Hope for a better Future!!!

2009-07-26T22:04:00.002+08:00

Wad i did on saturday.
Went out with jasmine..
Pics on facebook.
A few only.

Sunday.
I had a dream..
The sweetest i ever dream of.
Was kinda spoilt by idiotic bro of mine.
The brainless one.
Haiz...
I dream of...
Wan to know? Tag me through msn.
It kinda lame lah..
To me, it embarrassing but romantic bah..
I also still have blur blur memory about it...
Nvm.
Gt tease by my mum when i told her..
Continue to do my stuffs..

When i was bathing, I keep thinking...
Related to the dream.
Thinking...
I also cant say it out...
I have the urge to sms one of my friend to find out some'thing'..
But i didn't do so.

I dun wan to wait.
I feel so useless right now.
Can someone lend me a shoulder to lean on?
I'm not strong anymore.
Can someone lend me a listening ear?
I'm cant hold on anymore.
Can someone just cover my eyes?
I dun wan to see wad i dun wish to see.
Can someone volunteer to give me hugs?
So that i can cry on?
Who can?
Who can be the one?

When i listening to some sad songs...
Yes.. i did intend to cry..
But tears will never fall..
Maybe they are telling me not to wait any longer?
Maybe.

Maybe we still living in two different world...

2009-07-22T22:12:00.002+08:00

My phone totally suck...
Battery only can use at most 1 and half day..
wonder is it normal or not?

So keep changing my phone here and there...
Aiyo..
Meiling is leaving me~
T.T
No!
U cant leave me!
CANNOT!
My best friend in Eye centre.
She felt stressful..
Currently, we all are persuading her not to leave.
All JIA YOU!

nothing surprise happen.
Just that one of my friend piss me off.
I dun like ppl who hide things from me.
Especially health- related issue.
I feel that
I, as a friend dun know yr problem...
Still continue to like hehe haha with u
wad if, really 1 day u just leave * touch wood*,
I will feel regret and sad..
I will think myself as a useless person..
Who dun even care about my friends and so on.
Not say I'm a first- aider lah..
With my personality,
I will also care of my friends..
U are making me feel that i'm such a useless person.
I know u mean good lah.
Knowing that i'm will get worry and stuffs like that.
But i just dun like the feeling when i heard from others regarding you.
It like...
ARGH!
U think for yourself bah~
Dun wan to continue and dun wish to continue.